I have sat down to write this blog every night for the past 5 nights and keep staring at an empty page. It feels impossible to try to find the words to address something so significant especially as someone with white privilege. But I also acknowledge that saying nothing is a lot worse than saying something especially when faced with really painful and important things. I am certain as I try to find words that many of them will be wrong and I am sorry for the ways my privilege may continue to do harm. I also believe, however, that we as humans are allowed to get things wrong, while we work extremely hard to get things right. I am in awe and inspired by the peaceful protesting that is happening right now. People are finding their voices and are refusing to be silenced. This past week has highlighted the desperate need to put a stop to systemic oppression, and to realize the critical need for all of us to change. The police, and those in positions of power, but also us lay individuals as we seek to properly educate ourselves, as we learn, unlearn and relearn all over again.
What I also know to be true is that anytime change is involved, things feel uncomfortable. Life has gotten messy, this year has brought forth more change and pain than I think most of us have experienced in our lifetime, all in an extremely short period of time. While change is hard, change is also necessary. It is the only thing that forces us to grow, to be better and to ideally keep finding our voices. What I want to say is that my heart is with all of you. It is with the BIPOC communities and with the individuals, of any race, who are trying to do better so that we no longer live in such a divided, segregated world. I am entirely out of my knowledge base as I write this and have what feels like a million more questions than answers right now and so I am also here asking for help. I am going to bury my head in content by non-white individuals and ask for any resources you may also have to share. My hope is that in time the world will come out of this a better place, and in the meantime, I will do all that I can to at least make sure I do my part to help make that happen.